i has boyfriend!!!

thats all.

:D:D:D

okay so maybe thats not all. the truth is that i feel really nervous and uncertain and just....fear. its fucking strange. like the second he's gone and i can actually think again, i get all nervous and afraid and loose my appetite and just idk. I dont feel afraid, hardly like ever. i know that sounds false or ( Read more... )

...aaand ive just spent the night in a guys room. *gasps and wild outcries of "OMG!!" and "SCANDAL!!" erupt*

sush your shocked faces....nothing quite like that....

SEE: i met Clayton, thats his name, Saturday. As some of you who may venture to twitter or be around when i am may have noticed ive been spending quite a bit of time with him....and thats ( Read more... )

I did not think i would be homsick.

and im not.

I'm friend sick. I sent Jim an email today and i called Jeff. BIG MISTAKE. lol naturally i send Jim this email and for some reason i spill how im actually feeling. even when im not talking to him face to face he still manages to yank that kinda thing out of me. *win* haha. so i realized typing that ( Read more... )

...i spend my time at 2 am.

so last night....early yesterday morning w.eee....i was up at 2 am againand i wrote this poem and then feel asleep. i woke up and forgot about it since i had written it after waking up from a near sleep state. i went about my day until only a few minutes ago rediscovering it. i typed it up, edited it and if i do say so ( Read more... )

What follows is a little venting i wrote after managing to stop crying. if you dont wanna read, keep scrolling by on your flist....

Newsanchor: Neil Patrick Harris annoucned today via twitter that he and his long time partner are going to be parents of twins using a surrogate blah blah blah blah
Dad:Unbelievable
Me: what?
Dad: that kid deserves a ( Read more... )

What follows is going to be the epic long post about my past week or so. Sadly, there will be no photos since my sister has them all on her camera and would not give me the memory card. When and if i get that card there will be pics over on fb, and i'll put some here =] There will be long rants about: rides, problems with my sister, and ofcourse ( Read more... )

This entry,  despite the goofy title, is rather important to me. I need feed back/opinions/suggestions/thoughts etc etc. so if you could just bare with me through its long and twisted telling and then respond id super duper appreciate it. Thank you in advance =]

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So this entry turned into the longest post ever. that being said. its the most soulful and honest that i have ever been, not only here but possibly ever about a lot of crap in my life. If you dont care about me, then dont read it. if you do, you will. trust me, it explains a lot...well maybe not a lot but quite a bit =]

( Engage.... )

Alright i have to vent about the two things that have happened today and as much as hate put Mr. Evans who is nothing but wonderful in the same entry as my father who is nothing but jackass, however as events would have it i have to talk about both. I'll start with the good =]

My goodbye to Mr. Evans...

( My Sanctuary... )